I THANK MY LUCKY STARS FOR MY STEVE

I never thought this would happen. When my little romance with MW fell apart when he went to Emporia I just knew that my life was over and I would grow old and never find someone to love from my heart. I was so sad because I didn't believe there could be anyone out there for me. I thought I had missed my chance and it was just a big let down for the rest of my life. And all the while he was in Iraq. He was the one that I wanted all along, he caught my attention enough to sign up and send a hello a year earlier. One day out of the blue, I saw that he was back and my heart pounded- and I cheered out loud HEY OH MY GOD! THERE'S MY MAN!! I sent him a little hello for the second time and he came right back asking for my picture. It sounds silly meeting someone on online dating but he was the only one I ever wanted. I thought he was the sexiest thing I had ever seen and it was his big huge neck in that picture that looked so manly and hunky and yummy in that blue shirt. I thought he was gorgeous and I never thought he would like me back as in seriously and available... This has been a breath of fresh air and new life that I needed so desperately. He proved to me that it's never too late. Something absolutely wonderful can be just around the corner no matter how blue things may have been in the past. It's never hopeless, the show is never over until we say it is.

Most of all Im thankful for finding someone who could awaken my senses from such a slumber. I was asleep, life was passing me by and I felt unworthy of something good or special. I just accepted that I missed the boat and life would be tolerable but suck until I was 88 and dying. And here comes my beautiful gorgeous Steve setting my heart on fire, making me feel alive like a woman for the first time, I realized that a whole side of life was missing from me. He awoke the woman in me, the one who will admit she needs and wants a man. Im not shy or afraid to say that I want him in every way. And it's him. If this were any other person I wouldn't be excited like this and burning down the house every minute until we can be together. I've come down with the vapors I can't sleep at night I hug my pillow tight and imagine him there with me. No one else could ever do because he is offering me my love story. He has to go off all alone and fight a war and that makes me want to protect him and cherish him and spoil him and love him with every bit of affection I can give. I have never in my life wanted a man this way, in my heart, in my life, and romantically as well. I want to make him happy and yes I have my hopes up high. My wish is that he comes home from this war and we are together again forever. It's just not possible that I found a man 6'3, smart and cool, respectable occupation, handsome, no kids yet, nice friends and family from what I can tell, gentleman, sensitive, full of pride and not wanting to let me down, a libra and aquarius are the best love match in the whole zodiac. He is absolutely perfect for me and he's older than I am by just a wink so he's even still the boss. I couldn't ask for more in a man and I don't mean to be so overt and starry eyed but I know a good thing when I see it. He is everything I have ever wanted in a man, in someone to love, in someone to share my life with and I want to be my very best so he is proud of me. I know we need to take it slow and if we are meant to be together it will work out for us. I believe in fate and true love. I really really do. Because we found our way somehow even this far... Im all smiles. I feel so alive, so jittery and magical just dreaming about our first kiss. When he looks in my eyes and smiles and Im so shy and he puts his arms around me and all I can do is close my eyes and let heaven come in. I ordered books and all kinds of stuff, lengerie, flicks, everything I need to make up for time lost so that I can make him happy and it's my touch that he aches for. I want to make sure that I know what to do and how to take care of him because he matters to me, his love and affection matter to me, his happiness matters to me. Thank you God. grama, whoever for bringing us together. He's my dream come true and no matter how this turns out happy or sad I am elated to feel this way anticipating something wonderful in my life that's real for the very first time. Im so happy that I didn't sleep all around, my boys have never once seen a man with me overnight, because it never happened. I don't have kooties, I don't have a bad reputation except for fighting and that one fireman, Im a partier, and cool and wild and sexy and everyone knows that Im the bomb and just waiting for a nice guy. I have tons of men friends but no one I was interested in romantically until now. Im so glad that I kept the faith and took the higher road. Im brand new and shiny and golden and there is someone that I could really love and he will be proud of me that Im not a big mess and been through everyone in town. That never was me and now it was all worth it. Thank you for this shiny chance, this dream is coming to life before my eyes and Im so happy and enchanted. Yeah that's the word Im looking for ..enchanted becuase this is my fairy tale with all the magic I could ever wish for.

Nikki and Steve - yes that's very sweet!