He Has To Realize It Was Me By Now! :o) Yeah!

I want so much to call him and tell him all about it. But Im scared and nervous and it was an honest mistake. I had two post it's with cell numbers for Steve on my desk and I called the wrong one! And it was my baby! Think! Think! Think! I have to be cool and when he asks me why I didn't just call him back I'll tell him I was kinda scared to because I didn't want him to think I was playing games. If I was going to call him it would have been late at night when I had a nightmare, not when he was a zillion miles away and couldn't come to me. He has to remember by now that he did give me his cell when we planned our date that time and he just has to know it was me. He will. And I will be sweet and shy and melt his heart. This is his time for family and here I have him all to myself and 5 minutes away so no I don't want to call up there. I just don't want to and he may not appreciate it anyway. So, Im glad it happened because I wanted to hear what his voice sounded like. He was kind of shitty and irritable and it made me happy to hear him. I thought well this explains alot! Steve doesn't do a damn thing he doesn't want to... He's not a softie all the time, that told me if he fell in love with me he would defend me and protect me. He's solid and no bs just like me. That conversation told me alot- even how brief it was. And even though I was my sweet talking self, he didn't flirt with me, but when he said my name his whole tone changed and he was sweet. I know he likes me alot, and everything is cool. So don't act like an idiot, explain what happened and charm him. It's not the end of the world, it's the beginning of the world if he loves me. And Im happy that I crossed his mind at home in a good way. That told me all I need to know. Thanks fairy godmother for making this happen somehow. I love my baby. I just want a chance and he will be adored and loved from my heart.