I am such an idiot

I am in love with this man and we have not even met face to face. I am totally inside out aching for this man and all I have seen are his million pictures and talked for 3 months. I feel teased and tortured so much I could just cry and all I want in this whole wide world is for him to take me in his arms and kiss me so that I know everything is ok. I can't believe I have banged my heart out there so far and if he doesn't go crazy over me I will be so devistated. Why did I do this to myself, how did this happen and damn don't you ever learn? And what do I do my heart is completely strung up I couldn't turn back and walk away now if I had to. My imagination is going nuts and I want him with me close to me just safe and warm, nothing even physical, I just want to be near him. He is on his way back here right now and we are planning to meet and I am feeling 80 emotions and I don't know which way is up. I look at him and his eyes are soulful and I see so much more than just a handsome man I don't even know how to explain it. It's more than just attracted. I ache to feel him close to me and to feel his kiss warm on my lips and tingles a million shivers all over. What on earth am I gonna do if he doesn't love me? Everything I have dreamed for is right there and I feel so much more than just a crush. He is offering me my happy ending and something new and beautiful that I want so much. Please be every wonderful thing that I think you are and then love me. Love me like you have never loved any woman before. He really truly is my knight in shining armour.