My Future Is Mine and Invitation Only --Period

I did so good today and I know that Im mature and thinking straight. Just sharing something soecial with my dad telling them a little bit about someone I like. Immedialtely she chimes in with her big hook snout fatass and says something about leave the past in the past... I come back with the truth - I of all people have got that one down. I don't want or need a god damn word from her and she knows it. My life and whomever I chose to be with is mine. My family is not even relevant to my personal life. Any thing that Steve and I might have together is between us and that's all. That is true for anyone I end up with because honestly I have no idea if this is going to be something we both want. How could I know. My dad is concerned and wants me to be happy and that's why I told him. I should be able to share little things with them. But the truth is IM 37 years old and I can do whatever the hell I want to, I don't explain myself to anyone and If I make one mistake after another it's only my own fault. She will never get a chance to interfere in my life again. I won't let that happen. Ever. And Steve or No Steve I want my own life away from my leechy nosey meddling family more than anything. I love them to death and I cherish all the good times we have had but I want my own life far away from here where I can come home once in awhile and visit and leave all the BS behind right here. I hope Steve and I end up on the sweetest silver lined cloud, but that's a wish. I don't know if we will hit it off, get along, be dying for each other that way. That's what I want, I want to marry my knight in shining armour, the love of my life, the one that I just cannot live without, and then I want a life that's just us. He knows how I love my kids and we're a package deal for right now, but even those days are limited. And then it would just be us and that's what I want. I want the love of my life, I want my love story, I want to marry my best friend, the flame in my fire, the one who I can be myself with 100% and be accepted and loved. I want to be everything to him and spoil him rotten and I'm going to marry the one that I love with every beat of my heart with eyes open and and thinking strong and clear. That's the only way for me. To love someone heart body and soul. I can't have it any other way.