IM GETTING PRETTY FUCKING TIRED OF THIS

Did he forget Im here? No sign of anything and Im tired of getting my hopes up and come crashing down. I refuse to reach out to him again first this is bullshit. To make me wait 3 months to meet face to face when we live 5 minutes apart. Fuck this and fuck him too. This makes me feel like Im just entertainment. Someone to boost his ego and nothing in it for me. Im not doing this. Im angry and insignificant. I care and I want to be with him and Im tired of not knowing what is going on and being left in the dark and no contact and guessing and analyzing everything. Im tired and I am not playing this game. This is mean and insensitive and maybe Im mad for no reason and how would I know. I already send a complaint and said everything I need to say. It's up to him now and if he doesn't want to be with me then I will have to accept it and move forward. Im a beautiful girl and I deserve someone who will cherish me and protect me and all I want in this world is Steve. Im not going down this road again and loving someone from a distance and no love back to me. I will not do it. Im tired of the bad guys wining I want a love of my own, I want hot steamy love and kisses and make out all night long, I want a shoulder to cry on, I want someone to hang out with and cook for and laugh with everyday. Im lonely and sad and feel ignored and laughed at like Im a joke. Like lets see how much she'll take. No self respecting person would wait around for nothing and feel so blue. Please don't let me down too. I want you and I don't want to get over you too. he better hurry the fuck up because as soon as Crissy gets home I'll never be around anyway.
And all I want in this world is to go to Paris. I'm going but it would be really wonderful to not go alone :o)