Hate

Hes gone, and a million miles away
couldnt care less about what Im facing
Hell and the wolf are growling at my door
And I have no one but me.
He was never mine, I was just deluding myself
he's not coming.

Im scared, scared as hell
my kids are turned against me
my children dont want me in their life
They trust you and you deceive them
my children
my whole life

no friend, no shoulder, no man
to say everything is gonna be alright
and I wont let anything happen to you
or I love you
or Im yours no matter what happens

where is the man
where is the knight in shining armour
where is my love story
i feel cold and forgotten and alone
i feel pain so raw

I never felt hate
not like this
not from my heart and wishing someone death
I hate you
I hate the day you were born
I hate the day I saw you
I hate the day I loved you
I hate the day I married your worthless piece of dirt
I hate the day I made you a father
so you could break my heart
into a trillion pieces
you owe every happiness to me
and I got nothing but misery

I hope you rot in the hottest corner of hell
for a hundred years
I hope your eyes melt out and your heart turns black
like mine is now.
You are the most hideous human being
I have ever known and I cursed my whole life the
day I loved you
the thought of you brings vomit to my throat
I hate you I hate the day you were ever conceived
I hate your family
I hate your mother for making such a bastard of a son
Burn in hell for a thousand years and I wouldn't spit on you
I hate you and god please forgive me
I understand hate and I feel it.