I LOVE STEVE AND NO ONE ELSE WILL DO

How in this world could I ever go out with someone else or kiss someone else. There is only one place I ever want to be and that is warm and safe in his arms. I lay there in my bed and imagine him next to me and I just shiver. How is it going to be when he turns to me and kisses me soft and tender and I start to undress him and he whispers no and I take his hand and kiss it sweetly and move it away and do it anyway. How is it going to feel when we're warm and undressed and all over each other. I want him so bad, how could I ever love anyone now but him. Who else went and joined the army in the middle of a war and who could ever be my knight in shining armour but him. Who has those dreamy sad blue eyes and his full tender mouth that is going to kiss me until I melt. His big shoulders, his big strong hands to hold mine with, his long strong arms to hold me tight. And I'll be looking up at him with my blue eyes and long hair and hungry wanton body just aching for him and he will take me to his heaven and I will be so lost and happy and dizzy. I love him, I love everything about him and there is no way in this world I can take up with someone else. I would be wishing it was Steve every second and I couldn't do it anyway. He can't leave me like this, and he won't. Drinking makes it tolerable for him I know it and he can't run from his heart. We will have our day and it's coming and I won't let him get away. I want to be the woman in his heart and I think I already am. He doesn't know what to do and my pushing didn't do what I wanted. I have to convince him that he can trust me. This is between me and him and divulging everything to my friends is wrong. This has to be intimate and personal just between us and now I know what to do.