Im so confused and Im in love with him

I love him. How could I not love him. He is receptive to me and he understands what I am feeling and where Im coming from. He wants to meet me just as much. He sent me the sweetest message yesterday and I know where he is coming from. He's leaving maybe as early as November for 14 months and this is about self preservation. I think he doesn't want to fall in love with me and we are almost there now, we are, and then be over in Iraq for a year wondering if I am running around cheating, making a disaster out of this and a fool out of him. This is not the time to be starting a romance, but he wants a friend, someone who will be there for him. I understand his hesitation because it's hard enough for married people to stay together in the middle of a war and deployment, let alone openly get involved.. It's the mice play when the cats away thing.. I understand that. But if we love each other and I think it's possible he is going to have to trust me and take a chance. I would never handle his finances and all the nightmares that his friends probably tell him about. Im not like that at all and I have my own money anyway. I would wait forever for the right man and if this is where his head is at and Im sure it is. I can't hold back for another 5 months and not completely love him and want him. I want him next to me and I want his body next to me and Im afraid that this will turn physical and very sexual because we are dying for each other. I understand his hesitation but I think it might be hurtful too. I want to love someone I like and enjoy being together. I don't want to mistake love for lust and that's what is going to happen if this goes on. All I want is what I can't have and right now all I want is to feel him wrapped around me and protect me and love me. I need that, I don't want to be just friends. I want to be lovers too and how do I show him and make him see that he is safe with me. I have never cheated on anyone and if I loved him I would wait forever. Im so ready and ripe for this and it's killing my spirit being denied when the man I want is so close to me now.