Sunshine for Nikki

Hmmmm. I was watching some program on lifetime of a total bastard who beat his pretty wife all the time & finally she left. He hired someone to kill her to not deal with her anymore or divorce or custody. Wow. I realized - hey he's not that bad!! I would never have to deal with anything like that. What are his charms?? Sweet, smart, intelligent, tender in person, very attentive, focused on sex and pleasing to a woman, quiet and shy, tender in manners, doesn't go ho surfing at his own house with his family, thoughtful to get flowers, sincere and thinks with his heart and passionate, very sensitive, very handsome, very attractive and magnetic appealing to me, not conceited or full of himself, hard to be assertive and kind of flippit when he has to be, not a good communicator in that he never talks about himself, totally focused on me and surroundings, very clean, good taste, charming, fun, honest, has integrity, he's a good guy who has been single for 37 years and his way is the way..

I would be wrong to have ugly feelings towards him. The man loved me heart and soul when we were together and he is going off to a war. Cut him some slack and maybe our friendship will blossom in 5 years.. Maybe Im the one- maybe when he settles down and can have a life he will think to himself what am I doing?? I can't worry about the future. I need to live in the moment and if I find someone who is good to me and I was willing to leave this behind I would go for it.

What's important to me??
*Being beautiful and desirable
*Happy spirit and not blue and down
*Loving and great mother
*Clean organized house to relax in and escape to
*Dreaming and having goals
*Financial security, good job, savings and peace of mind
*Being sound minded and making good choices
*Being honest and real, not fantasy based and blinded by attention
*Freedom to be spiritual, sexual, confident, a wild woman just for me.

What do I want in a man?
*Tall, kind, sensitive, strong inside and confident, good hearted, good character now, attentive to me, makes me feel valued and cherished and no one else will do, sweet friends who make it exciting but not afraid to call it a night and be a one woman man, sexually giving and passionate, focused on me, kind and protective of my kids, thinks they are precious and wants them included as much as I do, loves nature, loves adventure and travelling, good saver frugal and smart, lets me be a girl and shop without flipping out, very smart and dependable, no out of control habits, spiritual and easygoing. Good natured and sweet. Stable.