This is just like Marty

I can't believe he put his ad up on the personals again. Why does he email me 3 times a day then? I cannot do this anymore. My worst thought was that one day I would look on there and he would be back. Maybe its for penpals who the fuck knows. He probably went on a date this weekend. Did he put that on before or after we went out. My little heart is about to crack open and I just want a nice guy that I can trust. I wanted it to be him more than anything in this world and here I go again back to zero. He's gotta go. This is fucking rediculous. Its just like with marty I start thinking whats the worst thing that can happen and boom there it is true as the sun coming up. He said he was done with dating and for now on it was just me and him. He said I was his girl and that was it. He said he would come and see me on Fridays and maybe more if he didn't have to work. I havent seen him in two weeks since he said all that crap. Why am I so gullible and get sucked into everybodys bs. Why can't I just find a nice man who will be good to me and just get on with my life. I don't deserve this, I really dont.