My Horoscope 11/1/05
AQUARIUS The fear of losing will keep you from gaining. Uptight energy can only hurt your chances at romance. Be easygoing and sweet- your usual self.
I love this. It says it all and so relevent right now. I need peace in my life. Its getting close now and nerves are wild and my tummy hurts all the time and I have a non stop headache. I took 2 tylenols today and it really did make it better. Love hurts. I am feeling ugly emotions and its because I feel so bereft. In a way it seems like he's playing a game and then I think what is he thinking. Does he have a bunch of girls to say goodbye to. Am I really the one closest to him. Does he keep to himself or have I been played for an absolute fool. I would be so destroyed, if that were true. My chest hurts, I put on some weight in Oct staying home and bawling and overeating. My heart has palpatations and im too heavy. It scares me. I decided that enough was enough and I would only focus on me from now on. We haven't even talked today. This is the first weekday ever since we started this on march 21-thats weird. Im sad that he hasn't sent me a hello and it makes me feel like he would like to break away. I would never ever let someone I cared about go around feeling this way full of doubt and feeling isolated and abandoned. I thought we were going to be together. He said we were, that it was just me and him from now on. I can't believe he turned out to be just like a normal guy. I bought it and I feel like a fool. I want something real, someone who truly wants a girl, hes an idiot because im a great catch. I really am and im ashamed of the way Ive allowed this to play out, the way I have accepted being treated. Im tired of it all, I wanted him more than i wanted air to breathe and now I just feel empty and tossed in the trash. Im so hurt but this is just another chapter that I can end at any time. Im a cat too and i gotta lotta lives left baby. Im still Nicole. Might be sad baby blue nicole right now but i still got it baby. Who needs this shit... Not me.
I love this. It says it all and so relevent right now. I need peace in my life. Its getting close now and nerves are wild and my tummy hurts all the time and I have a non stop headache. I took 2 tylenols today and it really did make it better. Love hurts. I am feeling ugly emotions and its because I feel so bereft. In a way it seems like he's playing a game and then I think what is he thinking. Does he have a bunch of girls to say goodbye to. Am I really the one closest to him. Does he keep to himself or have I been played for an absolute fool. I would be so destroyed, if that were true. My chest hurts, I put on some weight in Oct staying home and bawling and overeating. My heart has palpatations and im too heavy. It scares me. I decided that enough was enough and I would only focus on me from now on. We haven't even talked today. This is the first weekday ever since we started this on march 21-thats weird. Im sad that he hasn't sent me a hello and it makes me feel like he would like to break away. I would never ever let someone I cared about go around feeling this way full of doubt and feeling isolated and abandoned. I thought we were going to be together. He said we were, that it was just me and him from now on. I can't believe he turned out to be just like a normal guy. I bought it and I feel like a fool. I want something real, someone who truly wants a girl, hes an idiot because im a great catch. I really am and im ashamed of the way Ive allowed this to play out, the way I have accepted being treated. Im tired of it all, I wanted him more than i wanted air to breathe and now I just feel empty and tossed in the trash. Im so hurt but this is just another chapter that I can end at any time. Im a cat too and i gotta lotta lives left baby. Im still Nicole. Might be sad baby blue nicole right now but i still got it baby. Who needs this shit... Not me.
posted by Nikki at 7:27 PM
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